Cancer 2015: You don't have to be afraid.

January 9, 2015 was a morning I didn't want to face.  I had to go in real early and have a needle biopsy on my left armpit lymph node.  I was scared to death it would hurt.  I also had immense fear of my kids driving me to Scottsdale. When I'm in a car, I'm driving it!  I asked my daughter Sarah to drive me that morning because I would be taking medicine to relax me before my procedure.  Now let me just tell you something.  I was always the kind of person that thought I could tough out everything by myself.  Until the MRI machine was invented!  My surgeon suggested that she would prescribe Lorazepam for me so that I could feel more relaxed during difficult procedures.  So I gave it a try and I'm NEVER turning back!  There is no need to go into a procedure all freaked out.  Except for the fact that my other daughter Mariah that came along that day said I started talking in a Texas accent and talking rather loudly!  Whoops!  Whatever the case, you don't have to be afraid.  With loved ones surrounding you and a little pill of relaxation, anything is possible!

Later that night, just as Emma sat down to do her homework, the smoke alarms all went off in full force.  I mean deafness was upon us if we didn't run out of the house. Never mind we didn't stop to think that the house was on fire! (Which is wasn't) My husband was working late that night and I needed someone to come and help me somehow turn these crazy things off!  I felt an impression to call The Kishpaughs. So Dave and Lynn came over and solved the problem.  I then told them that I had breast cancer.  She told me that a good friend of hers had breast cancer and told me that she would have her call me.  So for one hour that night I spoke with someone that had endured much. She told me that I could get through this.  Looking back, she said that it didn't seem so bad going through Chemo.  She didn't have some of the side effects that others had.  She told me to rely on the Lord and pray about the different choices that would come my way.  Later that evening, I said to Emma, "I know why the smoke alarms went off"  She said, "Why?"  I said, "I needed to talk to someone that could help me better understand what I'm about to go through."  I call that a tender mercy.

Thanks Amber for bringing me beautiful flowers!


January 10, 2015 I received an awesome package in the mail.  My daughter Mariah bought me something really cool.  It's called The Breast Buddy.  A seatbelt cocoon to better cushion delicate mastectomy and breast reconstruction sites. Thank you Mariah!  That was such a kind thought!

I also want to thank Janet for bringing me a delicious dinner today!  One less thing to worry about.  And after having a little "breakdown," I want to thank my home teacher Brother Bryan and my ever kind, loving and patient husband Brad for giving me a blessing to endure another day.

2015: I must beat this crazy thing called CANCER

On December 17, 2014 I found out something I never wanted to hear.  "I'm sorry Mrs. Haney, you have a mass on your left breast. But don't look at cancer as a death sentence."  My mind flooded with the thoughts of my mother dying of breast cancer, and her mother, my maternal grandmother dying of breast cancer.  My Aunt Nancy had breast cancer.  My mind is racing.  Wait a minute, I have five kids, I have three grandkids. How am I going to tell my husband? How am I going to tell my kids? I started to cry. I never cry.  You can ask my kids.  It's during the Christmas holidays.  I can't tell anyone.  It will ruin everything. With my report and films in my hand, I walked through the lobby crying and ran outside to the parking lot.  It was raining. It never rains in Arizona.  My mother loved the rain.  Then all of a sudden, I felt a strong impression to go back inside and take this information to a surgeon that would also soon be removing a tumor from my 17 year old daughter's breast. (You think that sounds crazy? Another daughter too had a tumor removed from her breast last year! Both their tumors are benign. Thank goodness)  I walked into the surgeon's office and much to my surprise saw my friend who happened to be the office manager ask me if I was ok and what I needed.  I started to cry.  She took me into the back and reassured me that everything would be ok.  Within hours I was scheduled to have a biopsy on December 26th, 2014.

December 26, 2014 was a painful day.  I gave birth to five kids and would gladly do it 200 times in a row than go through the pain I felt when I had my biopsy.  It felt like someone took a very sharp knife and sliced off my breast.  I will never do that again.  I'm not kidding.  NEVER!

December 29, 2014 I received a phone call from a nurse telling me I had INVASIVE DUCTAL CARCINOMA.  What? I really do have cancer?  What kind of cancer is this? The nurse told me that the cancer was in my breast tissue.  I became so numb that I could barely hang up the phone.  I started to cry. Me and my husband just sat there and said nothing.  He finally said, "We will beat this!"  I babysat my grandkids that night so that my daughter and her husband could celebrate their 9th wedding anniversary.  My granddaughter asked me why I had tears.  I just told her I had allergies.

December 31, 2014 I met with my surgeon. By the way, she's awesome! She went over all my options. Lumpectomy, mastectomy, bi-lateral mastectomy.  I barely heard the words chemotherapy, radiation, etc.  I felt numb.  She was so surprised that I hadn't told any of my family or friends.  I just felt like I need more information before I told everyone.  The time was passing by so slow.

January 2, 2015 I celebrated my 30th wedding anniversary.  My kids gave me and my husband a gift card to eat out and tickets to a comedy show.  I tried to laugh.  So much was going through my mind. I feel like the walls are caving in on me.  I'm confused.  Why me?

January 4, 2015 was one of the hardest days of my life.  With my children gathered, I had to tell them I had breast cancer.  I could barely speak.  I will never forget the look on their faces.  Complete sadness and despair.  I did everything in my power to be positive.  Together as a family we will beat this cancer.  We must!

January 5, 2015 I had to have an MRI in the morning and an appointment with the oncologist in the afternoon.  The oncologist told me that the MRI found another spot on my right breast and a deformation in my lymph nodes in my left armpit.  I need another ultrasound and a needle biopsy.  Can someone please stop all this!

January 7, 2015 I went to Ironwood Cancer Institute to have a PET scan.  When I walked into the building, it was packed with people everywhere.  Why do so many people have cancer?  No one looked happy. Of course they weren't! I wanted to run out of the building! I can't take this anymore!  I want to run away!!

I am a woman of faith.  Many people have told me that they are praying for me.  I can't even begin to tell you what that means to me.  Last night a group of young girls brought me dinner.  It was a hard day and I needed that.  What a blessing!  Even though I'm scared of the unknown, I feel at peace.  We don't get to choose the trials we have in life, but I know that challenges can make us stronger.  I hope that through my experiences, I can make a difference in someone's life that is also going through the madness we call breast cancer.  I want to live.  I WANT TO LIVE!

I love this picture of me and my mom holding my daughter Jenna. (April 1987)

I miss my mom.  I wish she could be with me during this difficult time.

What can we do to make our marriages work?

On January 2nd, I celebrate my 31st wedding anniversary.  Yep, I do!  Looking back on the last 31 years of my marriage I can certainly say that we've had both our ups and downs like any normal marriage would have.  We are also fortunate to have five children.  If you read in my "About Me" tab, you can come to know me and my family a little better.

Out of my five children, three are married.  The other day I was talking to my daughter Sarah and my son-in-law Jason who have been married for five years. I asked them what they thought makes for a strong marriage.  Some of their responses were as follows:  Being kind to one another, being faithful, giving service to each other, compromising, being generous, showing affection, being flexible and reasonable, being willing and giving, listening and communicating without interrupting each other, being honest, maintaining your appearance, praying together, having alone time apart, and learning the importance of "cutting the cord."  All these are ideas are fantastic and feel so blessed that Sarah and Jason are working together on building a strong family unit.  I can only hope that each of us will strive to have all of these ideas applied to our marriages.  Even after 31 years of marriage, I'm still learning to bind my marriage in eternal bliss!

Look how cute Sarah and Jason are!

It seems as though one of the occurrences of being married is having conflicts arise.  They seem to crop up every day. I strongly feel that one of the most important ways we can fortify our marriage is to resolve conflicts in a positive way.  Based on research from an article titled, "What makes Marriage Work?" by John Gottman, Ph.D., I would like cite information that I believe will help all of us continue to have a healthy and happy marriage.

According to Gottman, there are three different styles of problem solving that help marriages.

They are:

• Validating:  Couples compromise often and calmly work out their problems to mutual satisfaction as they arise.

• Volatile:  Conflict erupts often, resulting in passionate disputes.

• Conflict-avoiding:  Couples agree to disagree, rarely confronting their differences head-on.

According to research, "all three styles are equally stable and bode equally well for the marriage's future."  Even though there are many different ways we tend to solve problems, Gottman found that "there was a very specific ratio that exists between the amount of positivity and negativity in a stable marriage [and] that magic ratio is 5 to 1.  As long as there is five times as much positive feeling and interaction between husband and wife as their is negative, the marriage was likely to be stable over time."

Also, most of us would agree that communication is essential to a long lasting marriage.  According to Gottman, "there are four disastrous ways that sabotage your attempts to communicate with your partner."  Gottman has termed these four ways "The Four Horsemen."

• The First Horseman is Criticism.  So what is the difference between complaining and criticizing?  A complaint might be, "I wish you would help me clean the kitchen after dinner."  But criticizing is when you attack someone's personality or character and say,"You never help me clean the kitchen!"  Gottman states that, "It's important and healthy for a marriage to express anger and disagreement which will make the marriage stronger in the long run than suppressing the complaint. When criticism becomes so pervasive, it corrodes the marriage and then the next horseman arrives."

• The Second Horseman is Contempt.  So what is the difference criticizing and showing contempt?  "Contempt is the intention to insult and psychologically abuse your partner.  Some of the signs that your spouse is showing contempt are: Insults and name-calling, hostile humor, mockery, and body language.  Sometimes when we show contempt we can't even remember a single or positive act of our spouse.  You have to stop seeing arguments with your spouse as a way to retaliate or exhibit your superior moral status."

• The Third Horseman is Defensiveness.  "If you are constantly being defensive, you are adding more problems to your marriage."  According to Gottman, signs that you are being defensive are: 

1. Denying Responsibility.  No matter what you are never to blame for anything.
2. Making Excuses.  You claim that external circumstances beyond your control forced you to act in a certain way.
3. Disagreeing with Negative Mind-Reading.  Sometimes your spouse will make assumptions about your private life feelings behavior, or motives.  When this "mind-reading" is delivered in a negative manner, it may trigger defensiveness in you.
4. Cross-Complaining.  You meet your partner's complaint (or criticism) with an immediate complaint of your own, totally ignoring what your spouse has said.
5. Repeating Yourself.  Rather than attempting to understand what the spouse's point of view, couples simply repeat their position over and over again.  Both think they are right and that trying to understand each other's perspective is a waste of time.  

Gottman states that "What's important to remember is that if you view your partner's words as information that is being strongly expressed, they are less likely to criticize you or act react contemptuously when disagreements arise."

• The Fourth Horseman is Stonewalling.

One of the worst things we can do in communicating is to not communicate at all.  This is called stonewalling.  A study was done and found that "most men don't get physiologically aroused when their wives stonewall them, but wives' heart rates go up dramatically when their husbands stonewall them."  According to Gottman, "The fourth horseman need not mark the end of a relationship.  But if your interactions have deteriorated to this extent you are at great risk of catapulting even further down the marital cascade- becoming so overwhelmed by the negativity in your relationship that you end up divorced, separated, or living lonely, parallel lives in the same house." 

Let's not forget who we married.  Let's not forget our wedding day and the important vows we made to each other.  Even though times can be rather difficult, let's remember the love we have always had for our spouses and try to treat them with love, kindness, and respect.  Be willing to listen and learn.  Have compassion and understanding in times of need.  Treat others as you would want to be treated.  I want to come back next year and say I've been married 32 years and hopefully say one day that I've been married for 75 years!  Finally, I must say that I have the most loving, kind, generous, strong, and the most good-looking husband on this planet!  I love you Brad...

Ten financial principles that will guide you through the Christmas season and throughout your life.

I love the Christmas season and I love the joy it brings through giving.  I believe that most of us have desires to help others and give to those we love and that are in need.  However, during the Christmas season we also need to be careful how we manage our finances and make sure through sound decisions that we don't spend ourselves into a life of financial struggles.

One of my favorite classes I took while at college was called Family Finances.  I loved this class!  The textbook we used for this class was called "For Love and Money, How to Share the Same Checkbook and Still Love Each Other."  (By Bernard E. Poduska)  One of the main concepts I learned from this class is the way we manage our money is usually caused from behavior problems.  The author of this book sets up ten financial principles that will help you to better manage your financial life.  The ten financial principles with scriptural references are:

Principle 1:  Financial problems are usually behavior problems rather than money problems.  (Matthew 25:14-18.)

Principle 2:  If you continue doing what you have been doing, you will continue getting what you have been getting.  (Galatians 6:7.)

Principle 3:  Nothing (no thing) is worth risking the relationship for.  (1 Timothy 6: 7-11.)

Principle 4:  Money spent on things you value usually leads to a feeling of satisfaction and accomplishment.  Money spent on things you don't value usually leads to a feeling of frustration and futility.  (Matthew 6:24, 31-22.)

Principle 5:  We know the price of everything and the value of nothing.  (Matthew 6: 19-21.)

Principle 6:  You can never get enough of what you don't need, because what you don't need can never satisfy you.  (2 Nephi 9:51.)

Principle 7:  Financial freedom is more often the result of decreased spending than of increased income.  (Proverbs 21:20.)

Principle 8:  Be grateful for what you have.  (Ephesians 5:20.)

Principle 9:  The best things in life are free.  (1 Corinthians 2:12.)

Principle 10:  The value of an individual should never be equated with his or her net worth. (Matthew 16:26.)

#ASaviorisBorn

I hope all of you have a Very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Cutest little guy ever!!

  

How do we age well?

One of my favorite classes I took at college was called Adult Development and Aging.  This class required that I would spend 10 hours serving the elderly in a nursing home.  I spent most of my time playing games with those of a feeble mind and body.  Even though this experience was both disturbing and sad to me, it made me realize that I would do everything in my power to take control of my life and learn to age better.

According to Walker, "Arguably the longest and most comprehensive study of human development ever undertaken is just revealing its final results: We are very much in control of our own aging." Walker states that "The Study of Adult Development at Harvard Medical School comprises three projects begun in the 1920s, '30s and '40s... in which 824 men and women [had] been followed from their teens into their 80s [and] over the decades were given psychological tests to evaluate their lives and feelings."

Dr. George E. Vaillant, the study's director, found that "good genes did not account for better aging." Vaillant also debates "that with aging comes decay."  The study showed that "when comparing a 30 year old brain to a 55 year old brain, the older one is better developed."  Also that, "advancing age impairs some motor skills, but maturation can make people sharper at emotional tasks."  Another interesting finding from Vaillant, is that "many people who aged well unconsciously reinterpreted early events in their lives in a more positive light as they grew older.  Those who clung to negative events were less happy adults.  Forever blaming others can impede maturity."

Below, Dr. Vaillant points out seven keys to aging well.  Vaillant states, "that these seven major factors, at 50, predict what life's outcome will be at 80."

1.)  NOT SMOKING OR QUITTING EARLY:  "Those who quit the habit before 50 were, at 70, as healthy as those who had not smoked."  Vaillant states that, "smoking is the most significant factor in terms of health."

2.)  THE ABILITY TO TAKE LIFE'S UPS AND DOWNS IN STRIDE:  "Those who learn early how to roll with the punches are much happier in their later years, despite real problems."  Vaillant said, "Life aint' easy.  Terrible things happen to everyone.  You have to keep your sense of humor, give something of yourself to others, make friends who are younger than you, learn new things and have fun."

3.)  ABSENCE OF ALCOHOL ABUSE:  "Abusing alcohol destroys both your physical and mental health [and] can destroy a marriage."

4.)  HEALTHY WEIGHT:  "Obesity is a risk factor for poor health in later life."

5.)  A SOLID MARRIAGE:  "A good marriage contributes to a long and happy life.  The study also found that, overall, marriages improved with time-if people were willing to work out the bumps. This is important for both physical and psychological health."

6.)  PHYSICAL ACTIVITY:  "The study specified that the Happy-Well usually did 'some exercise.'  The benefits of fitness also extended to mental health."

7.)  YEARS OF EDUCATION:  "The more years of school people have, the more they tend to age successfully.  People seek education because they believe it is possible to control the course of their lives."

The truth is that we don't know how long we're going to live in this life.  If we live to be in our 80s or 90s, we should want to live well.  We need to strive and do all we can to live a happy and healthy life.  Because of my religious beliefs, I do not smoke or drink alcohol.  I'm so grateful that I made the decision to stay completely away from these vices.  I have seen many suffer the abuses and pain that come along with these particular addictions.  We also have to be positive!  My kids think it's crazy at some of the things I have to laugh at so I don't lose my mind.  Just try and have fun in life instead of worrying about EVERYTHING!  Oh, and by the way, having a solid marriage does requires work!  It just seems like more and more married couples give up so easily.  Learn to love and forgive one another.  Just TRY IT!  Physical activity can lead to a healthy weight.  Go on walks or bike rides with your spouse or friends.  Doing some type of exercise is better than nothing!  Finally, whatever it takes, seek out to be educated.  Read good books, research topics that you find interesting, and take a free class at your local library.  Go to bed early and rise early. (I just had to throw that one in.)

Take control of your life and age well!

My favorite four generational picture!

Granny (my mom) Jenna (my daughter) Audrey (my grand daughter) and Me!

I just LOVE my new addition!

It's been awhile since I've written a new blog.  I've been real busy falling in love with my new granddaughter who was born on April 29, 2014.  Her name is Clara Jean Foote.

Of course Clara's two siblings Audrey and Carson love and adore her too!

Carson warming-up to Clara

Dillon, Jenna, (my daughter), Carson, Clara, and Audrey

THE FOOTES

Thank you Katherine Louise Harris Photography for taking pictures two and four.

28 years ago, I witnessed a miracle!

On April 7th, 28 years ago, my twins Joshua and Jenna were born!  I consider their birth a miracle as they were born two months early and survived the ordeal of being preemies.  Even though they are both married and have lives of their own, I still remember the day they were born as if it were yesterday.  Joshua was born first at 10:00 p.m. and Jenna was born seven minutes later at 10:07.  By the way, Josh will always remind you that he was born first.

Jenna Elizabeth Haney

Joshua Alden Haney

Josh and Jenna were born on April 7 1987, at Utah Valley Regional Medical Center in Provo, Utah.  My husband Brad was finishing up his Accounting degree at BYU.  They were born 10 days before he graduated.  Perfect timing!  My parents were living in Tempe, Arizona and came up to visit their new grand babies.

I LOVE this picture of me and my mom holding Jenna!

Look at this CUTE picture of Brad holding Josh!

I remember after the twins spent three weeks in the NICU (Newborn Intensive Care Unit), the nurse told me, "You can come to the hospital and take your babies home!"  I remember feeling a little scared, but knew that this new journey in my life would be exciting, fun, and exhausting!  (Believe me, sleep deprivation was a whole new experience for me!)

My mom would always say, "Time flies by on the wings of lightning."  This statement is so true.  Before you know it, your kids are gone and faded memories become the present.  I feel so blessed to have started the journey of motherhood with TWO!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSH AND JENNA!!

Josh and Lisa

Carson, Dillon, Clara, Jenna, and Audrey